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Distraction [Sep. 16th, 2006[Snapshot Taken]01:13 am]
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My Mom took me to the Nortion Simon Museum in Pasadena today to distract me from thinking of Charlie. He told me that he didn't want me to go to Kaleb's funeral with him today because he said we should see each other, but at a time that was less sad. Although I agreed with him, I had to think: if he wanted me in his life, he would have wanted me there to help him through his time of need, instead of thinking I would be a distraction. So I didn't push any further. I am no longer calling him nor am I answering his text messages, although he has called twice and sent me a text saying he 'kind of wishes' I was with him today. Fuck that noise. I realized that all he gives me is pain, and I was a fool for staying.

As a final gesture, I'm mailing him a mask I bought for him a long time ago as a suprise along with his house keys. I once thought to have his house keys was special, but I realized more than anything that he didn't give anything I didn't take.

At the museum, I discovered an artist I liked very much, Edouard Vuillard, and I bought a print of his on sale for $5.

I'd forgotten how much I loved art, and all the things I'd be thinking if my relationships didn't consume me so much. Afterward, my Mom took me shopping at Loehman's for suits I can wear on my upcoming job interviews. Bless her heart for trying to help me through this heartbreak, and thank you all for your kindness and support.

♥ kisses

[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-16 08:04 pm (UTC)
And I love you--very much!! Next weekend is a-ok with me...We'll talk before then, though.
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[User Picture]From: catdecember
2006-09-17 02:47 am (UTC)
i just remembered that i have a birthday party later in the afternoon (around 3pm) at Eagle Rock. BUT i can still do lunch. :)
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[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-17 06:20 am (UTC)
No problem--anytime you'd like, we can fix something up for sure. Where is the birthday party?
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[User Picture]From: catdecember
2006-09-18 06:23 am (UTC)
its at my friend's house..... she wanted me to come earlier than the rest of the people as she knows i work on sundays.

gaaaah, so sorry. i'd rather spend a longer time with you. but i'm not sure if we can cram all our ranting in like a 2 hour lunch! :(
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[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-19 09:43 pm (UTC)
Um, well...that does seem rather short. You could come over on Friday, spend the night, and then spend Sat brunch with me if that would be better. You can have Karl's room--if my Dad isn't occupying it. I'll ask my parents and then you can also let me know!
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