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Distraction [Sep. 16th, 2006[Snapshot Taken]01:13 am]
Veronica
Make one and post it in a reply so that I can see what kind of love you generate...here's mine:


      
pixies are love
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My Mom took me to the Nortion Simon Museum in Pasadena today to distract me from thinking of Charlie. He told me that he didn't want me to go to Kaleb's funeral with him today because he said we should see each other, but at a time that was less sad. Although I agreed with him, I had to think: if he wanted me in his life, he would have wanted me there to help him through his time of need, instead of thinking I would be a distraction. So I didn't push any further. I am no longer calling him nor am I answering his text messages, although he has called twice and sent me a text saying he 'kind of wishes' I was with him today. Fuck that noise. I realized that all he gives me is pain, and I was a fool for staying.

As a final gesture, I'm mailing him a mask I bought for him a long time ago as a suprise along with his house keys. I once thought to have his house keys was special, but I realized more than anything that he didn't give anything I didn't take.

At the museum, I discovered an artist I liked very much, Edouard Vuillard, and I bought a print of his on sale for $5.


I'd forgotten how much I loved art, and all the things I'd be thinking if my relationships didn't consume me so much. Afterward, my Mom took me shopping at Loehman's for suits I can wear on my upcoming job interviews. Bless her heart for trying to help me through this heartbreak, and thank you all for your kindness and support.

♥ kisses
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[User Picture]From: catdecember
2006-09-16 08:45 am (UTC)
*hugs*

i love you. you know that, right?

the lunch offer still stands. how about next saturday? (coz the succeeding week is super busy for me). have you done kaiten (revolving)sushi?
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[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-16 08:04 pm (UTC)
And I love you--very much!! Next weekend is a-ok with me...We'll talk before then, though.
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[User Picture]From: catdecember
2006-09-17 02:47 am (UTC)
i just remembered that i have a birthday party later in the afternoon (around 3pm) at Eagle Rock. BUT i can still do lunch. :)
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[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-17 06:20 am (UTC)
No problem--anytime you'd like, we can fix something up for sure. Where is the birthday party?
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[User Picture]From: catdecember
2006-09-18 06:23 am (UTC)
its at my friend's house..... she wanted me to come earlier than the rest of the people as she knows i work on sundays.

gaaaah, so sorry. i'd rather spend a longer time with you. but i'm not sure if we can cram all our ranting in like a 2 hour lunch! :(
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[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-19 09:43 pm (UTC)
Um, well...that does seem rather short. You could come over on Friday, spend the night, and then spend Sat brunch with me if that would be better. You can have Karl's room--if my Dad isn't occupying it. I'll ask my parents and then you can also let me know!
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[User Picture]From: lorraine
2006-09-16 08:52 am (UTC)
I'm sorry you're going through pain right now... I think it will all be for the better in the end. It isn't fair for you to be in a relationship where you are giving all of yourself and getting half-assed love in return.
*smooch* I hope you feel better soon.
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[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-16 08:05 pm (UTC)
Oh, Lori! I miss you so much...can we drink together now? Is that a stupid question? Let's drown any and all sorrows!
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[User Picture]From: lorraine
2006-09-16 10:18 pm (UTC)
I miss you too hon... Of course we can drink together! Hah, don't worry. I'm 22 now! yay!

Let the drowning commence!
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[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-17 06:32 am (UTC)
Ah to be 22 again and have the world at one's feet...
*Cheers*
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[User Picture]From: lorraine
2006-09-17 08:30 am (UTC)
If only more 22 year olds knew they even had that...
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[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-17 08:47 am (UTC)

So beautiful, I sware!



Who else is love?
pseudomonas me scripsit anno 2005
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[User Picture]From: lorraine
2006-09-17 10:07 am (UTC)

Re: So beautiful, I sware!

Awww you're such a darling! *smooches*
We neeeeeed to hang out!
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From: lorgar
2006-09-16 04:38 pm (UTC)
we are all fools sometimes.. its the price of trying
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[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-16 08:07 pm (UTC)
Oh, so true. I guess it does show we were at least willing to try. That seems like a small consolation, but I at least learned so many important things. Thank you!!
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From: lorgar
2006-09-16 10:24 pm (UTC)
didnt learn anything from me... your other friends on the lj were more helpful with good advice than me.. i just babble..lol
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[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-17 06:31 am (UTC)
...that is all I can truly ask for. Thank you for babbling!
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[User Picture]From: siobhanachu
2006-09-16 08:40 pm (UTC)

i love enzymion!!!!

      
enzymion is love
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[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-17 06:26 am (UTC)

Re: i love enzymion!!!!

Do you mean the skin moisturizer?

That's so random that you generated love for a citrus based product! :0
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[User Picture]From: siobhanachu
2006-09-17 03:55 pm (UTC)

Re: i love enzymion!!!!

that has to be what it refers to. I couldn't begin how to guess they figured it out but my skin has been thankful for Lush making this marvelous citrussy aloe and coco butter combination that is perfect for my combination woes.
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[User Picture]From: siobhanachu
2006-09-17 03:56 pm (UTC)

Re: i love enzymion!!!!

o wait- it is on my interests list. not so strange...
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[User Picture]From: red_paperdoll
2006-09-17 06:41 pm (UTC)

Re: i love enzymion!!!!

That is so Awesome!
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[User Picture]From: queenofcretins
2006-09-17 10:48 pm (UTC)

Because you wanted me to!

      
wit is love
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Fuck that noise. I realized that all he gives me is pain, and I was a fool for staying.

Not a fool, just in - the horrible feeling sometimes known as - love.
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[User Picture]From: ravishing_kijo
2008-01-29 08:45 am (UTC)
i am writing to you in what might seem like an intense blast from the past, if you can salvage the vestiges of memory.

i am a friend/ex of demure__pain. i have decided to add you but it is entirely your decision if you reciprocate the connection. she had spoken highly of your words to her in the past & had mentioned you had a very soulful & understanding approach to even the most complicated of scenarios & bestowed them with profound clarity.

there is an absense of those types in my life. i'm hoping to eradicate that.

truly,
dascha
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